Well..... I can identify with the above, I have been training two years almost exactly and I am a two stripe white belt. I try not to be too hard on myself, this past two years has been an extraordinarily turbulent time for me and my family. I competed in one tournament, had two matches and won my division LOL... limited competition but I had a blast. I am 37, and I have 3 young children, and believe it or not my wife likes to have me around in the evenings to help out and actually have a marriage, and I like to be there, because my kids are only little once. I wish I could be in the academy 5-6 nights a week, believe me I really do. I have watched guys around my age and ability progress relatively quickly to their blue belt, and watching those promotions was a little bitter sweet for me; a couple of those guys were exceptionally talented wrestlers that advanced quickly winning multiple IBJJF competitions, some were just able to be there every day and learn and progress. I am happy to have helped them progress, by being a training partner and giving my support and cheers whenever I could. My two days a week, between moving my family twice over the past year after losing our home, a stint of unemployment, a new job, relationship issues, injuries, one skin related health issue, and trying to start my own business, well....... frankly as my instructor has put it, it just won't cut it. It hurts, because BJJ is very important to me, but I also respect and realize that it takes time and sacrifice, sacrifice that at times, I just can't make. So it is what it is. I have recently considered just quitting, but generally speaking, that is not in my nature. I can see that my instructor, who I also count as a fairly close friend, gets frustrated at times. I am not sure what to do, I certainly don't want to not have BJJ in my life, even my wife hates it when I don't train. Finally, I don't want to have something I didn't earn, not in my personal life, not in my professional life, and not on the mat. I want a blue belt, and I want beyond that, but I want to wear it, only once I have earned it. I have been through many struggles in my life, just like all of you....BJJ is one challenge that I have chosen for myself rather than one chosen by fate, I will address it on my own terms, and I will eventually accomplish and acquire what I came here to get.

Keep training, keep loving, keep living, keep fighting.

DAGG